Sunday, January 17, 2016

how about this piece of info...

Did you know that on Feb. 10, 2015, the Institute of Medicine released a landmark report that contained a series of recommendations for ME/CFS, one of which called for the name to be changed to Systemic Exertion Intolerance Disease (SEID). The name has not yet been formally adopted by world and federal health agencies and I personally think that is because they are still arguing over what ME/CFS is.  In the USA the doctors seem reluctant to embrace the thought that CFS is something more then someone being lazy...

Chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS) is a complex medical condition, characterized by long-term fatigue and other symptoms. These symptoms are to such a degree that they limit a person's ability to carry out ordinary daily activities.

myalgic encephalomyelitis (ME) means brain and spinal cord inflammation with muscle pain.  
Doctors have argued for years that there is no "itis" with this infection present but "most patients develop the syndrome after contracting a cold, flu or other viral illness, but other environmental or toxic exposures may act as triggers. Although no cause has been identified, people with the illness may suffer neurological, hormonal and immunological impairments."

One of the biggest problems with the names is the CDC's definition of CFS/ME from back in the late 1980's.  The criteria identify many patients who are more likely suffering from depression and other conditions that can cause prolonged fatigue and not actually a person with CFS/ME.  In other words they have been labeling us as being is all in our heads.  

The SEID diagnostic criteria from the Institute of Medicine ME/CFS Guide include six months of profound and
  • unexplained fatigue  
  • postexertional malaise
  • unrefreshing sleep
  • exhibit cognitive problems 
  • orthostatic intolerance, an inability to stand upright for more than a short period.
I think that it is about time that they are finally starting to believe their patients complaints and concerns and investigating what is going on.  I was devastated when I was diagnosed with FM and ME/CFS because I knew it was a label that would have profound effects on my health care forever more.  Remember that part about a post infectious syndrome or a trigger?  I was bitten by a lyme tick in 1990 on a vacation with my family to an endemic area in South Dakota.  I went through a lot but not all the early "symptoms" of the tick bite!  I didn't have a noticeable rash at any time during my infection...  I was told by my doctor if I didn't have a rash I didn't have it!!!

a list of signs/symptoms (s/s) from the Center of Disease Control (CDC)

Early Signs and Symptoms (3 to 30 days after tick bite)

  • Fever, chills, headache, fatigue, muscle and joint aches, and swollen lymph nodes
  • Erythema migrans (EM) rash:
    • Occurs in approximately 70 to 80 percent of infected persons
    • Begins at the site of a tick bite after a delay of 3 to 30 days (average is about 7 days)
    • Expands gradually over a period of days reaching up to 12 inches or more (30 cm) across
    • May feel warm to the touch but is rarely itchy or painful
    • Sometimes clears as it enlarges, resulting in a target or “bull's-eye” appearance
    • May appear on any area of the body
    • See examples of EM rashes
Later Signs and Symptoms (days to months after tick bite)
  • Severe headaches and neck stiffness
  • Additional EM rashes on other areas of the body
  • Arthritis with severe joint pain and swelling, particularly the knees and other large joints.
  • Facial or Bell's palsy (loss of muscle tone or droop on one or both sides of the face)
  • Intermittent pain in tendons, muscles, joints, and bones
  • Heart palpitations or an irregular heart beat (Lyme carditis)
  • Episodes of dizziness or shortness of breath
  • Inflammation of the brain and spinal cord
  • Nerve pain
  • Shooting pains, numbness, or tingling in the hands or feet
  • Problems with short-term memory
  • Fever and other general symptoms may occur in the absence of rash.
  • A small bump or redness at the site of a tick bite that occurs immediately and resembles a mosquito bite, is common. This irritation generally goes away in 1-2 days and is not a sign of Lyme disease.
  • A rash with a very similar appearance to EM occurs with Southern Tick-associated Rash Illness (STARI), but is not Lyme disease
  • Ticks can spread other organisms that may cause a different type of rash.
I even with all the early signs of the disease but since there was no rash I told by the doctors that I had some kind of a virus that was going around.  I lived with it cause we all know doctors know best!!
In 1992 after dealing with "issues" for two years I developed heart palpatations, dizziness, shortness of breath, nerve pain issues, the shooting pains, numbness, or tingling in the hands and feet and memory issues.  My doctor told me I had anxiety and depression and put me on drugs...I didn't do well with the drugs and became 'mean'!  I started doing research and demanded tests to be done...which she told me I would have to pay for if nothing showed up...I didn't care I knew something was wrong and it was.  I was positive for Lyme's disease on a blood test but not a strong positive since I had been infected such a long time past.  My doctor still wasn't convinced and ran another test...still low positive so she gave in and gave me the antibiotics needed to treat the disease.  I went to two courses of drugs before I tested negative on a new test...a different test then the first ones we had done...she was convinced I never had the disease...I was convinced I needed a different doctor.   I suffered...yes I have suffered with CFS/ME/SEID all this time...most of the time it was tolerable and I could work and had control of my life except for small relapses. 

Fast forward almost 20 years to the summer of 2010...I had a lot of stressors in my life that year and was working too many hours, not getting enough rest etc and I collapsed at work one night.  I was tested, retested, and tested again and not much of anything showed up on all the lab and xrays they did.  Most significant was verrrrrry low Vit D and Magnesium.  My doctor finally decided I had FM and CFS/ME/SEID and tried to bribe his nurse to come tell me cause being a critical care/emergency dept nurse he knew I wouldn't believe in the diagnosis.  Everyone knows there is no such thing as FM CFS/ME/SEID!  Those people are just drug seeking neurotics....yes my belief at the time...better watch what you believe to be truth cause if it isn't it might just come back and bite you in the end.

I have been on disability since 2011 because of the disorders.  IF you want more information on the past issues I have had you can read previous posts.  I had decided just before Christmas I was going to try and push limits and try to walk more and do more but that hasn't happened and probably won't for a while!  Christmas day I fell and fractured my left knee!  What did I do?  Nothing!  Was was walking out to my car and down I went.  I didn't trip over anything, didn't twist an ankle, step off a curb, nothing.   I went to the emergency room on Christmas day but was told they didn't see a break on xray and was sent home with orders to follow up with an orthopedic doctor.  I did...took two weeks to get in to see his PA and he ordered an MRI.  I wasn't diagnosed with it fractured until 3 weeks after the fact.  I had to go in to get the MRI results a week after the test and it showed multidirectional fractures in the proximal tibia...  What am I suppose to do about this broken knee I have been walking on for 3 weeks...I was told to just keep doing what I have been doing, don't fall, don't exercise, use a walker or a cane...casting and brace won't help right now.  I wonder how they (doctors/PA) would have dealt with it and only be given 15 Percocet to handle the pain!  I feel I have been screwed over by this new healthcare system dictated by the rules and regulations of the big business pharma and insurance companies.  I was told that they couldn't do an MRI at the ER because I didn't show a break on xray and it was a specialists field now!! 

I am flaring with the FM and CFS/ME/SEID and that is what is driving this post.  I have pain in the knee, back, and hips from the fall and then the all over achiness/I don't feel good from the chronic disorders.  Life is a bitch and then some right now.  I need to take down Christmas decorations, clean house for a visitor that is coming from England and all I can think about is where my next cup of coffee is coming from cause I hurt or I am so tired I don't want to get up to go to get it or even go to the toilet.  So there is my story!  I think I will go back to bed and watch some TV...brain rot but my brain is foggy and it is hurting to just finish this post.

more later...

Saturday, January 16, 2016

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year!  Hope everyone had Happy Holiday's and has a game plan laid out for the new year.  I personally don't believe in resolutions because every year that I sat down and wrote something up I failed...  Yep a total failure!  Worthless and useless...  That really doesn't describe me so I decided to quit doing that to myself and making myself feel bad.  I do what I can on an unscheduled basis and I feel better about myself.  Doesn't mean I don't have plans I just don't do resolutions!

My year was rather uneventful last year...for the most part.  Health wise I had ups and downs but don't we all with fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue/Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (FM, CFS/ME), etc.  I had a little more issues with CFS and subsequently a little more apathy.  I think you what I mean... its when you don't feel bad but feel so tired that to just get out of the chair to go lay down is a major issue.  It takes too much effort to do art, too much effort to blog on your page, too much effort to order take out much less cook a meal...  I talked my feelings of inadequacies over with my the lady, if you don't have a talk therapist I strongly suggest you get one!..and she asked me if I was trying to be someone else?  Someone who is younger, healthier, and able to do what they want?  Am I setting the bar way too high and every time I try to jump and make the bar do I fail?  Do I beat myself up every time I don't succeed?  YES I DO!  Sometimes it is hard with our disorders to determine what is "normal," what is "abnormal," and when we are just reacting to what the society around us is dictating what they think we should be like.  My talk therapist helps me determine what is me and what is the ubiquitous them!

Back to the issues of this year...  I made several long distance car trips this year going to events and camping with my daughter, her husband, and friends.  I love to travel to see and do new things.  Despite my 'issues' I keep pushing myself to do more!  Sound familiar!  It takes me a good two weeks of down time after a road trip to bounce back and be my 'normal' again.  Was it worth it?  I think so.  I have learned that the pushing is the only way I will ever get anything done anymore but it is tough for me to know when it is a gentle push and when I am really over pushing.  I have had to learn to put limits on what I can and can't do...things that are already limited by my physical disabilities!  One thing I have learned that works for me is frequent short naps, going to bed earlier and getting up later and not apologizing when I do it.  I sleep in the car with feet kicked up and eye mask on when possible.   You do what you have to do!
A picture from one of the trips!  We went to Pennsic Wars in about it here!
Julie, me, and Heather my daughter
We had loads of fun but it was two weeks long and took its toll on all of us not just me.  Julie has lymphoma and like me was in the tent resting frequently.  Why the strange clothing?  Go read the linked post!

I was seen in the ER twice this year!  Not by choice but because my doctor was out of his office and not working at the time.  Both times I encountered this brick wall called FM, CFS/ME that is documented in my chart!  I get so tired of the looks that say, "okay, I know you are here for pain meds!" or the head nodding while you are telling them your issues...of course their thought are off to Aruba or what they are having for lunch not really what it going on with you!  Anyone know the look and attitude.   Okay back to the story!  The first visit was in September...I was have excruciating left flank pain and pain on urinating with blood!!!  I went in and after all the BS above was take care of and labs came back they were very solicitous and told me that they thought I had passed a kidney stone and it caused an infection....OKAY asshats!  Score one for me!  sorry but it feels good for something to show up and not have a single thing in lab or CT that proves anything wait...
Does that make me mentally ill to be happy I had proof I had something physically wrong with me?

The second visit was on Christmas day and I fell hurting my left knee.  Talk about pain!  I woke up really happy and feeling pretty good because my son and his family was in town with their children for the first time in six years.  They are military and get about a lot and with young children it is just a problem to travel anyway...  They were staying at my daughters house and we were leaving to go there when I fell and hurt my left knee...well you know Grandma can't disappoint the grand babies so we went on and watched them open gifts, ate breakfast etc and my knee kept hurting and swelling so my daughter hauled me off to the ER.  We actually got to the back to the exam rooms fairly quickly, got the Xray done and was told it was just a soft tissue issue...poet...and they didn't see any broken bones but I should follow up with a orthopedic doctor to make sure. 

Fast forward 2 weeks...yes two whole weeks before I could get in to see an orthopedic doctor...but I was actually seen by his PA Mike not the doctor!  Anyway 2 weeks later I am seen by Mike who tells me he has looked at the xray but seeing the swelling in my knee that I should probably have an MRI to make sure it was just a soft tissue issue...I like the rhyme!  I got in to the MRI about 2 hours later but had to wait another week to go back to the office to get the results.  Okay refresher  December 25 fell, January 7 office visit and MRI, January 14 back to the office to get results... seems really wrong some how to me to let an old lady sit in pain with a horribly swollen knee and leg.  I have to hobble around on a walker or a cane and still have loads of issues with balance.  I digress again...FM with foggy brain and random thought patterns.  ANYWAY!  I have a broken knee...not just fractured in one place but multiple fractures going different directions!  Great news after walking around on it 21 days!  Mike was very apologetic and told me that he wished they had known sooner but that there wasn't much they could do about it now.  I must have looked really pissy cause he started asking me what I was doing for pain, walking etc and gave me a few more hints of things I could do!  I am to make an appointment for 5 weeks and go back and also make an appointment with a bone clinic specialist to find out why a short distance fall broke the bone.

I also had an appointment with the rheumatologist/FM doctor this week.  No lab work, no xrays, no nothing.  Told me to keep doing what I am doing and come back in a year.  WAIT!  Does this mean I am no longer disabled?  no longer need a doctor?  WHAT the hell does this mean?  I actually asked her that I was so po'd about doctors and visits etc at this point.  No viable response.

I am still participating in the drug trial for the FM drug.  I don't think I am on any drug because I am not feeling any different fibro pain wise.  If I am on the drug then it is at a lower dose and not enough to affect my pain levels but I think it is effecting my sleep.  The first screen capture is from my FitBit sleep record before I started the study.  It shows how much I am sleeping and how well I am sleeping.  As you can see 9 hours in bed netted me 6 hr and 21 minutes of sleep.

This one is one take from yesterday and it shows I am sleeping a lot better.  Now I have to weigh in that I did take some ibuprofen prior to going to bed.  Another thing I have found is the later that I go to bed the better I seem to sleep in the long run! 
I wear a FitBit Flex and I can monitor how many steps I walk a day and how well I sleep etc.  There are more expensive ones out there that tell time, keep track of your heart rate, blood pressure etc.  I just want the basic they others take learning to operate. 

Well I think that this is enough for one post...maybe a little more then enough but I had to get caught up!  Have a great month!

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Life Changes...

I thought I would touch base and write a blog post about what is going on in my life recently!  I am sorry it has take so long but my life tends to be rather the same day to day and I don't have much to report. 

One thing I do have to report is a fibromyalgia research study being done on a new drug and that I am participating in the study. The company is IPS Research located in OKC, OK but there are branches all over the states where they are conducting different types of research.   I have gone to the clinic for 3 weeks now and was issued the drugs just yesterday.  I have taken only taken 3 doses so far and since it is a double blind study I have no idea what I am taking.  I don't think I will notice any changes or anything for at least 2-3 weeks if I am taking the drug instead of the placebo.

Why did I decide to do this study?  A friend knows what I have been going through with the fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue and she saw an ad saying they needed people to participate in the study and thought of me.  When I contacted the clinic they were so nice and so professional I though what the heck did I have to lose.  Those of you who have followed me know that over the past year I have just about quit all the medications I have been on for years because I didn't think they were working for me...If you take a drug to help with pain and it doesn't work why take it. 

I was on two fibro drugs and I still hurt so bad and was so depressed that it didn't make sense to me to continue taking the Savella and Lyrica.  Good drugs but they are expensive and they just didn't do what I was led to believe they would do...they work for some but not at all for me.  I also was on Requip for my leg spasms for over 5 years and still had spasms even with upping the dose etc and the only thing I noticed was an increase in my obsessive compulsiveness!  I was also on an antidepressant called Effexor because of my depression issues and all I can say is it is a nasty drug!  I weaned off the Savella, Lyrica, and Requip over a 3 week period and had no problems but the Effexor just didn't want to let me go.  It took several months and several lowering of the dosage to finally quit it.  My cost each month taking these drugs was just over $200...Like I said why take the stuff it doesn't work?

I have had pain for so long it has become part of my lifestyle...little pain in the upper back and shoulders today...think I will vacuum or mop the kitchen floor.  No problems standing I do dusting and cooking.  Laundry really seems to bother me no matter what day it is.  I am sure a lot of you reading understand my motives and methods.  The gist of it is you do what you can with what you have.  Hard part is learning to live with pain and the loss of who and what you were before the pain and problems came.  I have an awesome doctor and when he told me that my old life was gone forever because of the fibro and chronic fatigue I cried...still do.  I developed an attitude over the past 6 months that consists of living with what I have been dealt and working with what I have got.  So old girl the time has come to drop your old live and build a new one.  I wasn't ready to let it go but it is gone and I am rebuilding a different life. 

The only constant in this life is the pain and tiredness I experience every day!  I am hoping that trialing this drug it might help others that are like me.  I know that in this type of study I stand a good chance of not getting a drug at all but just a placebo/sugar pill.  The way it is broken down is
  • 25% will get a Placebo
  • 25% will get 75 mg Lyrica
  • 25% with get 15% of the experimental drug 
  • 25% will get 30 mg of the drug.  
My attitude is it is all for research and I am willing to help if the drug turns out to be a life saver for other people.  If I happen to get Lyrica or the Placebo nothing will happen.  If I get the drug maybe it will work for me...who knows!  Wish me luck

Sunday, August 30, 2015

ER Visit

Well I did something last week that I had promised myself I wouldn't do again!  I went to the Emergency Room at Norman Regional Hospital!  I didn't have a very good experience at the ED the last time I went there.  I checked in with complaints of chest pain and vertigo and was treated to a seat in the waiting room sitting by a man barfing his guts up in a plastic bag!!!  Sorry but the visual is still stuck in my head! 

On Thursday I woke up with a horrible headache, side, back and flank pain, blood in my urine, nausea etc etc etc!  I was miserable to say the least.  I rather suspected that I had a kidney infection but had been putting off calling the doctor and I guess it progressed to the point my body wasn't laying still for it any longer!  I called my doctors office and he was off for the day and his nurse practioner was booked up!  If I needed to be seen immediately I should go to the ER.  So I did with dread in my heart! This time I was shown to the back and the minor care part of the ED and was seen rather quickly by an old nurse friend Pam, and Dr. R. Williams.  I got the fun of an IV, lab work, and a trip to the cat scanner but all in all it turns out that I had a fairly advanced UTI and maybe had passed a kidney stone.  YUK!  Not much fun...actually a real pain!

I think the reason I was so resistant to going to the emergency room is the stigma having my list of diagnoses brings with it.  I was sitting in the chair thinking about what I should tell the intake nurse involving my history of pass illnesses and thought...definitely not Fibro!  Well hell she already had it documented in my past visit history!!!  I hate the stigma that goes with that diagnosis!  Heather tells me to just believe in it myself and quit apologizing for having it...I didn't ask for it it found me!!!  I have been fighting with this crap since 2011 and you would think I would pull up my big girl pants and just live with it but it is difficult.  What crap have I been fighting?  Well lets see...
  1. Fibromyalgia
  2. Chronic Fatigue
  3. Post infectious disease syndrome...I have had lymes disease and RMSF!
  4. Irritable Bowel Syndrome(IBS)
  5. Restless Leg Syndrome (RLS) 
  6. Hypothyroid disease
  7. Hypotensive issues
  8. Celiac or gluten intolerance
  9. Psoriasis
  10. Roscea
  11. Raynaud's Syndrome
  12. Sjogrens's Syndrome
  13. mild Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA)
  14. face and skin cancer
For years I had been told that I had various other issues but this list is what I function from at this point in my life.  When you look at it the overwhelming issue is autoimmune disorders.  What did I do wrong in my life to be blessed with this crap!  I don't know!  I think that the lymes disease may have been an instigating issue in all this because I didn't have anything by the thyroid issues until then. 

What drugs do I take now?  Very little, as little as I can get by on.  If I don't think they are doing anything for me I have been taking them and trying them out for 4-6 months then weaning off if I don't think there has been any difference.  I am currently on...
  1. Synthyroid 0.15mg daily
  2. Plaquinal 200mg twice daily
  3. Prilosec 40 mg daily
  4. Multivitamin (MVI)
  5. Fish oil
  6. magnesium
  7. calcium
  8. cranberry capsules
  9. Vit C
  10. Vit D
  11. Occasionally I will have to take a pain pill or muscle relaxer but they don't do much good for me.  I seem to do better with just Ibuprofen or ASA
I have tried a number of other drugs but they just don't work for me and made me feel worse then what I do off of them.  Examples:
  1. Requip, ropinerole made me obsessive compulsive and I still had leg cramps taking 4 pills a day.  That Rx was over $800 before insurance brought it down to $65 for me.
  2. Lyrica...made me so depressed that I didn't care if I hurt or not I didn't care if I lived or not and at one point wouldn't have prevented something from killing me had I been given a moving out of a car's way or being run over.
  3. Savella worked in the beginning but then making my heart race and I was feverish all the time.  I had episodes of tachycardia and frequent PVC's so I weaned off it as quick as I could and it still took me almost 6 months to get off of it.  
That's just a few I quit taking after they quit working or I didn't see them doing anything for me.   The cost each month for those 3 drugs was running over $200 and I just could see paying it out for something that wasn't working for me.

I take a MVI cause I have always felt like people should take one to cover for the deficiencies in their diets.  I listened to a tape of the positives of Fish Oil and I take that for that reason.  I don't know that I can tell any difference from it or the MVI but hey I believe in prevention!  The Vit D and Magnesium were Rx for awhile because neither vitamin/mineral was at levels they should have been and I have been told I will have to take them the rest of my life.   The Vit C I take because Linus Pauling showed us back in the 1970's that it has a lot to do with the immune system.  I figure all the research he did taking it wouldn't hurt me and it might actually do some good!

The gist of this post is to tell you I am okay and so are you if you are blessed with any of the above diagnoses.  I apologize regularly to myself and to the patients I cared for in the past that I wish I had paid more attention to them and what they were telling me was the matter with them.  Yes there is a stigma to Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and many other disorders like them.  I wish there was a lab test or x-ray that could point positively at what we have but right now there isn't one.  I am looking at it from the perspective of being an explorer and traveling uncharted paths so others can have an easier trip.  When someone tells me that they don't believe in my disorders I am going to tell them "too bad...I wouldn't wish it on you to show you it exists cause it hurts too bad!"

Gentle hugs dear readers... 

Cranberry Orange Scones...Starbucks! 

WOW!  Isn't it funny how your mind can jump around all on its own!  Does your mind do that?  Mine does.  I was sitting here thinking I wish I could still eat gluten cause I would go to Starbucks and get a latte and a cranberry orange scone! (I haven't eat gluten in almost 3 years!)  Yum Yum!  I love them but since I can't have gluten to cheat and eat one means I will have several days of issues because of it and I just don't find it worth the effort most days. I decided to do some surfing and see what the internet could offer up!

I found quite a few different scone recipes and settled on this one from The Healthy Maven!
While it is not quite the same as the one at Starbucks it was tasty and filled the need for the scone.

Gluten Free Cranberry Orange Scones

  • 1 3/4 cups gluten-free flour + ¼ more for sprinkling*
  • 1/4 cup coconut palm sugar
  • 2 tsp baking powder
  • zest from 1 orange
  • 1/2 tsp salt
  • 1/4 cup cold butter, cubed
  • 1/4 cup cold 0% fat greek yogurt
  • 2 large eggs
  • 1/4 cup orange juice
  • 1 tsp vanilla extract
  • 1/2 cup dried cranberries (unsweetened preferred)
  • Optional: 1/3 cup white chocolate chips, melted-for glaze**
  1. Preheat oven to 400 degrees F.
  2. In a large bowl combine 1 3/4 cup gluten-free flour, coconut palm sugar, baking powder, orange zest and salt.
  3. Add in cubed butter and greek yogurt and either using a pastry cutter or your hands (get in there!) combine butter and yogurt with flour mixture until crumbly texture is reached. Should have the consistency of small peas.
  4. In a separate bowl combine eggs, orange juice and vanilla extract.
  5. Add wet ingredients to dry until combined.
  6. Stir in dried cranberries.
  7. Shape dough into a ball and drop onto a lightly floured surface. Add more flour to top of ball and additional flour underneath if sticking.
  8. Roll out dough into a large circle that is 1 inch thick. Dough is a bit tricky to work with but have patience. Add additional flour if still really sticky.
  9. Cut into quarters and then cut quarters in half to make 8 scones. If they lose shape, just re-shape with hands.
  10. Place scones on a parchment or silicone lined baking sheet and bake for 15-20 minutes (mine took 17).
  11. Let cool completely if icing with white chocolate or serve warm.

This picture is of the scones I made...yes there are a few gone but OMG!  They were so good hot that I couldn't settle for just one!  I ate two and Chuck was tougher then me he settled for just one!
Now the scones she made look really yummy but I didn't have the white chocolate to drizzle over the top of mine so I just used a simple glaze.  A trick I use to make GF biscuits or scones is I roll them out on waxed paper and just slide them over on to the baking sheet paper and all.  GF breads are really sticky and this saves the headache of trying to work with sticky dough and a lot of times adding more flour only makes the end product dry and tough!
 Give them a try...they are worth it!

Tuesday, August 18, 2015

HCF product recommendation

I was asked a couple months back to try a product called HCF, Happy Calm Focus.  I was a little skeptical because the person from the company that manufactures the supplement tracked me down from a posting on this blog.  If you read yesterdays posting I haven't posted in quite a few months so I figured they were just fishing but I agreed to try HCF.  
HCF Happy Calm Focused Brain Supplement - Amino Acids, Vitamins and Minerals for Memory, Attention, Focus, Mood, Concentration, Sleep, Weight Loss, Energy, Confidence and Hormone Balance
This is my product review I posted on  
  • on August 18, 2015
    I just got home from an extended stressful trip of 3 weeks and I don't know if this would be a good recommendation for your product. I will let you decide. I filled my med box with the HCF and started it the week before I left and forgot I was taking a new supplement until I got home. For some reason I thought I should only be taking 2 a day and just put one pill in the am and one in the pm and now that I have read the directions again I will start taking the 3rd at lunch. I have multiple autoimmune disorders and I was very skeptical that the HCF would do anything for me and my brain fog issues. I discussed it with my doctor and she told me to give it a try...who knows it just might work. One thing I can tell a you about is a notable difference in my recovery from the brain fog in the mornings. I usually take 3 hours and as many cups of coffee to be up and running each day but during the course of my trip I was up and running with the other travelers and seemed to be able to interact and function better. Physically I was stressed from so much walking and doing that I was tired a lot and due to my disorders not much will help that but rest. I am sleeping better I think. I don't remember getting up during the nights on the trip at all. Talking with my daughter she says that she noticed I was a little grumpy the first week or so but that maybe due to my getting off the other medication my doctor had taken me off of who knows. I began feeling a little less apathetic and wanted to do more and stretch my limits so to speak. I began playing games online again that are suppose to help increase your mental abilities and I had quit them because I would get so frustrated with not being able to remember this or that. I hope this helps someone to decide whether or not to try the product because I was really surprised at the results I have received after only taking it for a month!
 Now anyone that knows me very well knows I don't easily accept changes.  I had been taking a supplement my doctor Pam Wilson D.O. recommended for my brain fog and well being.  I couldn't tell that it was helping much was worth a try.  I ran out of the supplement just before our trip to Pennsic Wars and decided to replace it with the HCF.  I won't be going back to the Wellness drug but will order this as the results are noticeable and the price is just about the same.  

What makes it work...I don't know I am not a biochemist but I know it is working for me.  It isn't earth shattering results after a month but I am noticing a difference.  Here is the information label...

HCF label
This is a little difficult to read so you might need to go to the site linked above to check it out!  

Have a great week and I will continue to blog as my muse strikes!

Sunday, August 16, 2015

up for discussion....Warning rather harsh and crude language and attitude is in this post. Click the red X if...

These are the VIP's in my life.  They matter and their opinions matter. 
It has been over 6 months since I last posted and I quit posting for multiple reasons.  I apologize in advance for my language and attitude but you know this is my blog and if it offends you then you can click the frigging little red X at the upper corner and it will go away!

Like I said (before the attitude hit) I quit posting on this blog for a multiple number of reasons.  I had been having a particularly bad patch of it around the holidays and went to have coffee with friends and we were talking about various aches, pains, hardships, and realities when...
    1. A friend (aka Her from here on) told me that everyone knows I am sick and just about no one wants to hear about it anymore!  That just by looking at me I was playing up how bad my situation and illness is.   What really irritated me about it was she did air brackets..."sick" around the word sick when she said it....really folks I am surprised she is still alive.  Her made comments that I have made to myself numbers of times about why don't I look sicker?  I mean it took me 2 hours not 10 minutes to get out of bed, shower and get dressed to go to this thing.  My brain hadn't totally awakened yet and I was still in a fog and I was speechless for a few minutes.  Nope that person isn't a friend any longer and I could really give a shit about Her opinion anymore but....what if other people felt the same way? What if they were too polite to say anything like Her did?  Was I boring them to tears, squandering their precious time like she had said?  
    2. I felt really guilty about the remarks I made to her when my fog disspated and I could form a coherent sentence that didn't include the term "fuck you who do you think you are?"  I wondered if I over reacted when she told me that she was only thinking about me and why people didn't want to hang around with me anymore.  I don't feel that way now but I did then.  Her said that it wasn't like I had cancer or anything like that and "I wasn't going to die from it was I."   I really don't know if what I have is going to kill me or not...some days I wonder when my pain gets so bad I have trouble reaching around to wipe my own butt!  Excruciating pain that is like electrical shocks that fly up and down my spine.  I asked Her did she want to come help me wipe my butt on those days to see how bad it is?  Her reacted to me by saying, "see these are the kind of remarks I am talking about!" Guess I don't get any help from Her!
    3. One of the biggest reasons is once out of the habit of blogging it becomes a burden to get back into the habit for me.  And once again I wonder if people really want to hear about my aches and pains, trials and tribulations, how I get by one day at a time.  Does it do anyone any good to read about it when they all have problems of their own. 
    4. I talk to my therapist a lot about my problems both physical and mentally.  Debbie encourages me to think things through and doesn't tell me the right or wrongs of something I say or do... Debbie's take on it was "how do you feel about it?"  So after much thought and deliberation I think I am going to start blogging again about me, recipes I tried, the drugs I have taken, lab work results etc etc etc.  I know some people might not like to read about me but if it is an issue with anyone then I guess Her would like a new friend!
So those are the reasons...some of them. As Arnold says...I'm Back and I will be trying to remember to blog once a week!  If you made it to here I want to say thanks for reading this and I promise to do something better next post.